Back to the Basics

 OMG! My pharmacy bosses called me this afternoon and left me a voicemail, an hour and a half before my final. He said he wanted me to call him back because it was an emergency. Of course, I called right away...and guess what?! HE OFFERED A PAIR OF SENS TIX SECTION 107 plus a parking pass!!! OF course i said YESSSS!! It made my day, but of course i blew my final but i'll panic and think how the world is going to end once the mark comes out. ack! now i know i didnt do well on the final. urghh anyway...2 tickets worth $400!! Are they crazy? YES i feel guilty but i guess they said it was my birthday present?! i dunno but wow....it was nice. Gonna post pics later..after finals. =)

even though we lost. next season it is!

In a time when confusion about where I'm heading (if ever) with my BScN degree is at its high, I've finally felt that missing piece of the puzzle that I've been yearning to feel. Applying for 4th year consolidation is next year, but all of the nursing students have already felt the great burden of figure out each of our unique interest in life. This is probably one of the only time I was actually grateful about waking up early to go to class. We had a "cancer" lecture today and it almost brings me to tear to realize that I've finally found the core of my interest. I was really fascinated with everything the prof was talking about..the physiology, treatment, prognosis, diagnosis..everything! For the first time in a very long time, I was all ears. It just so happens my group from another class is doing our paper on Breast Cancer. From the day i spoke to another nurse who is also a friend and former colleague (she graduated just last year), i've been picking my brain about the possibility of pursuing a career on the oncology floor. She is a nurse at the General and works on the cancer floor. But i figure i was forcing myself to strive for it because i didn't have any other choice. It's different this time around...i really hope this is the right thing for me. I mean, i still want to do Public Health but I really want to work with cancer patients and the whole foundation that evolves around the disease to elaborate on my experiences before building on others'. 

Anyway, I've been having headaches on the daily basis for the past 3 weeks. =( I will complain about it until it goes away because that is what i do best.

Life is getting busier and I'm starting to miss you guys more, too. Where did my childhood go??? Why do we have to grow up so fast?

What you got if you ain't got love
The kind that you just want to give away
It's ok to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small

It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big at the time
It's like a river that's so wide it swallows you whole
While you're sitting around thinking about what you can't change

And worrying about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, and when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small

HAPPY 20TH, SIKHAN!!

(im not cheating! <3)

The last couple of weeks have been kinda different. I've sort of took the time to look around and see the things and people that means a lot to me. I think i've taken time for granted, especially time with my family. Afterall, they're there when you open your eyes and they're still there when you close your eyes. I think I've come to terms with maturing and aging, seeing the side of things that i wouldn't have given a glance at. It's difficult to put many things into words, or even a perspective that everyone can see and understand. With all the drama and incidences the world is spewing at us nowadays, life is shorter than it used to be (minus the factual statistics). Others' life stories used to annoy me but they've become something i thrive on. You don't see yourself until you see others see themselves. It's a battle we all should want to fight. Win or lose, we have to welcome pride, as well as defeat. I guess it's just  depends how you handle yourself in either of those situations. I've sucked at that lately, though, but I'm still trying.

I'm busy with work, just like everybody who is sneaking in time to read this. i have my final in 8 days. =S I work everyday day up until my final, then after the final, it's straight to the end of August. I just hope the weather will cooperate, if anything.

Anyway, i should head to bed now since i have to wake up in..umm...4 hours.

I've come home sick from work two days in a row!  I dont care much about the money...but it's about the things that could have happened today. Now that im at home, i can only imagine. It turns out that i have a cold after all..it's hard to tell when it's allergy season.One day before my "last day" of work and i'm sick to my stomach. It's funny how life works out and when it comes down to it, i wish it never happen. Be careful what you wish for though. Someone bring me chicken soup!!!!!!!!! =( 

i found out that one of my nursing friends failed ONE course by 3% (needed a 65 to pass) because "the bitch didnt pass" her. So now, she cant do her clinicals, labs AND nursing classes because of ONE class! she's a whole semester behind or more. I feel bad for her. I'm short of a note buddy now. I'd cry if that happened to me, but i think it's retarded though. They put the weight of your most important classes/clinicals down on ONE class.  

Lets make plans for this coming week...before school starts!!!!